In Between. #19.
- Supriti Parajuli
- Aug 11, 2021
- 2 min read
I think 19 is the most awkward age to live through. Too old to hang on to old high school habits. Too young to be part of that "adult" drama. Well, yeah you're an adult, but you're also technically still a teenager... right? Hell, you're even confused about which section to shop in, "do I shop in Junior's or Women's?". You have to get up and report to a job that is basically slowly sucking your soul, but you still have those sudden urges to be truly angsty and embrace the last bit of the previous chapter of your life.
You tend to look for a lot of answers that you do not have. You start the journey of finding your purpose. All of a sudden you come to realizing that not all people are great. There are only a few friends but many foes.
You let yourself love and be loved. You establish these hopes and dreams, wishing for peace and warmth. You look for love in others while sometimes... okay, most of the time, ignoring the love you should have for yourself. You find someone and treat them like your whole world because you believe you can start life again with this potentially amazing person. But then it suddenly disappears, and you realize that if only you weren't stuck in this loophole chronology, it would have been different.
19 is strange; very "in between". In between the person you once were, and the person you are going to become.
Amongst all of the awkwardness that 19 holds, we can use this age for good, for growth. I believe this age is the initiation of maturity and the time to express gratitude. Viewing people in your life as human instead of labeling them as per the relationship you're both bound in.
Actually understanding ourselves, trying to piece together the 18 years of who we were, and coming to realization that our pasts do not solely define who we will become in the future. That is what 19 is. It's the age where your hormones are at their pinnacle, your desires are forming, and your hopes are high. All these things messes up a person somehow but it's good.
Overall, 19 feels dumb. But it's important. It's needed. Acknowledge it, celebrate it, embrace it, kiss it, whatever. Learn from it. Keep it in your cabinet of memories. And most importantly, be kind to yourself and to others during this time.
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